“Something in the wind has learned my name
And it's telling me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
There's a pleasing sense of happiness for me.”
—“Top of the World” by The Carpenters
A pleasing sense of happiness.
When I hear these words, I take a deep breath in and let out a sigh of
profound joy. I am so very grateful to know what a sense of happiness
feels like. I haven’t always felt
this way. Thirty years ago this month, I admitted to myself that I had a
problem, that I could no longer live this way, that the happiness I had
been seeking all the years leading up to that moment could not be found
in all the outward “riches” I had acquired.
One October morning in
1984, I called in sick to work—something I never did, but I just
couldn’t face another day “out there.” There was an article in the paper
that morning discussing Karen Carpenter’s battle with
an eating disorder, which she had lost more than a year earlier. I was
so in love with the Carpenters and their music that Karen’s death had
hit me really hard. As I read about her battle with anorexia and
subsequent death, I felt the shock of it reverberating
to my core. In my mind, Karen Carpenter had had everything—beauty,
fame, and wealth—but she must have felt the same way I did inside:
alone, scared, and unhappy. It was then that I finally admitted to
myself that I, too, had an eating disorder—bulimia. The
tears came like a flashflood, and a voice inside me clearly and firmly
said, “You must get help.” The voice was strong and loud, and I felt
moved to listen.
The voice I found that
morning was “the love that I found” for myself, which gave me strength,
courage, and a higher perspective—as if I were “on top of the world.”
In that moment, I knew deep within that if I were
to ever be happy, ever envision a future of self-love and fulfillment, I
must get help. I was desperate, and I felt like I would rather die than
go on living this way. I knew that if I continued down this path, I
surely would! In that moment of feeling how
close death was, I found inside myself a desire to do whatever was
necessary to get better. So thirty years ago today, on October 31, 1984,
I checked myself into a treatment center. Today I am still in awe of
the courage that took!
Today, I am happy, strong, and loving my life so completely that I often look into my mirror and say, “Thank you.”
My six weeks at the
treatment center changed my life. The experience was deeply enriching. I
felt safe, loved, and accepted by a wide range of people, and I had a
beautiful sense I was not alone. It was there that
I was introduced to the Twelve Steps. Every day that passed fostered
even greater strength and wisdom within me. I became immersed in reading
for inspiration and spiritual instruction. I found comfort, hope, and
strength in the words of great teachers and
guides. When my time at the center concluded, I left there with an
incredible desire to live a more meaningful and spiritual life.
I had a deep knowing
that I must embrace the 11th Step of AA: “sought through prayer and
meditation to deepen my conscious contact with God, as I understand him
or her.” This is what has fueled my thirty-year journey.
I maintain my unwavering desire to live this way through dedicated
daily practice, including meditation, mantra repetition, focused
attention, and reflection. With each choice I make and challenge I face
in life, I rely deeply on my inner strength, faith,
and courage to remain on the path I have chosen for myself.
On my 30-year
anniversary, I offer my personal experience of transformation, recovery,
and love to anyone suffering from an addiction, whether it is to drugs,
alcohol, an eating disorder, or any other debilitating
activities that interfere with your living the magnificent life you are
capable of living.
1.As human beings, we hit bottom and come to a place where we are ready to live differently.
2.We admit we are powerless when we are not connected to our Source within, and then take up a spiritual path of our choice.
3.We begin making moment-by-moment choices, taking one step at a time toward living our lives of greatness.
Barb Schmidt is such a captivating speaker that her passion and charisma have
garnered her the devotion
of fans, who travel across the globe to be part of her inspiring
movement for global peace through inner peace. Barb is founder of
Peaceful Mind Peaceful World, a community outreach program
through Florida Atlantic University (FAU) designed to promote dialogue
in the greater community on the topic of inner peace by incorporating
workshops and weekly teachings with Barb and many
of her esteemed mentors, including His Holiness the Dalai Lama, Dr.
Jane Goodall, Dr. Andrew Weil, and many others. Barb is also the founder
Peaceful Mind Peaceful Life, a non-profit organization through which she teaches
The Practice, a three-part guide to practical spirituality in the
modern world and her tool for spreading her belief that “outer peace
begins with inner peace.” Peaceful Mind Peaceful Life has rapidly
expanded to include an online community via Facebook
(with posts reaching over 10 million people), through their daily
inspirational emails and weekly blogs. In 2014, Barb’s extensive
achievements in fostering positive change earned her an invitation to
the White House State Dinner.
Review: Chasing Luck - Book #1 Serendipity Series - Brinda Berry - May 2014
Malerie is a survivor, no matter what anyone says though she doesn't feel lucky and she has always wondered whether she should have survived that day when she was seven years old. The day she went to work with her mother and the building was bombed , killing everyone but her. The next chapter fast-forwards to her present day life and she is about to celebrate her birthday with her Uncle who gained guardianship of her when her mother passed away. At the table he presents her with a gift and also at the same time , Malerie meets Ace who is hoping to become a business client with her Uncle. Then tragedy hits again with a shoot out in the resturant , which again leaves her a survivor. When Malerie arrives back home , she discovers that the four boxes she has been given on her birthday each have a date inscribed on them. They are the dates of significant events in Malerie's life, ones that has had her coming out as a survivor. With the help of Ace, can Malerie track down the creator of the boxes as she believes that they hold the keys to her future ? What happens though, when it seems that someone is out to end her life and those around her are being hurt or dying ? Is Malerie just lucky or is there a reason she is still alive ?
This was a fast-paced book, that held my attention and when Malerie and Ace went on their journey to San Francisco , it made me want to keep reading to discover what truths the boxes held if any.
I am looking forward to reading more by this author in her "Serendipity Series".
Kate Kavanagh is happy raising her daughter and focusing on work, but when the girl moves to New York for a fantastic job and ends up moving in with her philandering father, things get complicated.
Her best friend, Madeline Stein, has been a career girl all her life. As a single mom, her job defines her, so when she loses it, Maddy needs to find something or someone else to make her forties fun.
Portia Kavanagh hits New York with a bang, but she’s so hungry for adventure she bites off more of the Big Apple than planned. Portia retreats to what she thinks is the sanctuary of her father’s home and soon discovers she’s not the only one in the family with an overactive appetite.
Kate and Maddy find themselves leaving their lovely hometown of Lincoln, outside Boston, for the fertile and romantic hills of Tuscany. However, blue skies, rich wine, and charming Italians bring the women a whole new world that they have to maneuver with the grace and style of a Lincoln Lady. Portia’s high-octane life in Manhattan comes at a price, too. Out of the millions of men she could have, she chooses the only one she’s meant to avoid. Her quandary: Has she made a mistake of epic proportions or found the one in a million?
This is a story of three fantastic women on a journey of self-discovery. With more ups and downs than a Florentine fairground, the ladies survive love, loss, and fresh pasta by laughing at life and using a doggie bag. There are lots of thrills and spills along the way, but in the end it’s all about friendship, attitude, and walking off that fabulous food. Come on an adventure and enjoy the ride with the lovely Lincoln Ladies.
Suzy Duffy is an international and #1 best-selling author. She writes laugh-out-loud, life-affirming stories about women from five to ninety-five. (Sometimes she writes about men, too, but only for comedic purposes, and pets—if they’re funny.)
Her books have won numerous awards and critical acclaim. They’ve been published in Norwegian and German, and she gives 10% of her royalties to www.FOBH.org
Her New England trilogy includes:
Wellesley Wives – September 2012
Newton Neighbors – September 2013
Lincoln Ladies – September 2014
Praise for Duffy:
“Five Star rating . . . An all-American heart-warming romantic comedy.”“Suzy Duffy . . . I had wondered who would be filling Maeve Binchy’s shoes . . . EXCELLENT . . . Highly Recommended.”“Duffy isn’t just a good writer, she’s a darn good storyteller, too—a rare combination.”
Suzy is Irish and currently lives in Boston with her husband, five children, and one dog. She was recently a guest speaker at the Sydney Writers Festival in Australia. She loves connecting with readers, book clubs, and writer’s events.
Should she stay true to herself or should she follow her wounded heart back to her first love?
Back to the one who left her heartbroken and alone.
Who will be the one to help heal her heart?
Will it be Dylan, who started as her re-bound, but has become her strength and her life line over the past few months.
Or will it be Kade, the one who stole her heart and showed her the true meaning of love. Then showed her all the despair, vulnerability and pain a broken heart can cause.
Which path will bring her to her happily ever after?
Excerpt 1 –
My eyes can’t help but stare and linger at his toned
and tanned arms, his chiselled face, slightly stubbled. I could never forget
his ruggedly handsome face that I once loved so much.
Seeing him last night in the darkness, I really
didn’t do him one bit of justice.
In the brightness of the day he is a god, one
extremely good looking, sexy man and those hazelnut coloured eyes glistening in
the sunlight, are doing all kinds of things to my insides.
Excerpt 2 –
As I rub my hands along her body I tell her. “This
tanned skin of yours is so clear and smooth; I love the softness, your
untouched beauty, no Photoshop of Botox or plastic surgery. Roxy I love you and
just you my all-natural Aussie beauty. You are my very cheeky, stubborn, way
too independent, hotter than hell Aussie beauty” I state to her as I thrust
deep inside her wet core. I glide in with ease; she is so aroused and dripping.
Roxy is a fighter, she is strong and
independent. She knows exactly what she wants and is not afraid to go after it,
especially when it comes to men. Roxy thinks she has men figured out, that is
until she meets Kade. He storms into her life like a knight on a white horse to
save her. He makes her question everything she ever thought she knew about
life, men and herself.
With a past that keeps holding her
back will Kade be able to break down her walls? Will he be able to prove to
Roxy that everything she thinks she knows about men is wrong, or will he prove
‘Fuck you make me hot Roxy.
I’ve never been so turned on in my entire existence.
Your curvaceous body, lips made for kissing and skin
so soft and untouched.
I am so greedy when it comes to you, so get used to
sex morning, noon and night from here to eternity princess.’
Breaking My Heart
Okay well there’s a glimpse of the girl that makes
my heart skip a beat, her true emotions, her honesty.
Her walls are definitely up.
Do I want to have to break down those walls?
Will it be mission impossible?
Will I get hurt again? Fuck
I can’t resist this woman!
As irritating, confusing and frustrating as she is,
I just can’t resist her!
Born and raised in Sydney, NSW I am in my thirties
and happily married with 3 gorgeous boys.
My first love has always been reading, so the
writing side is very natural to me. Favourite books include anything by Abbi
Glines, but Fallen too Far is a favourite, Pulse & Collide by Gail McHugh
and The Driven trilogy by K Bromberg.
Hobbies of mine are playing netball; shopping and I
love listening to music. I add it into my writing frequently.
I am totally enjoying this rollercoaster of being an
Indie author and hoping others enjoy my writing as much as I love writing itJ
Shelf Life (Crestlane County Series, Book 1) It’s impossible to focus on college biology when your family believes doomsday is imminent and the government is out to get you. All Pete Wilson’s ever wanted is to become a veterinarian, but those dreams are going up in flames. Commuting to an urban college and helping his parents with their apocalyptic prepper crap is more than he can handle. Worse, Pete’s asshole neighbor is stirring up trouble, his family’s stockpile has been destroyed and farm animals are turning up dead. Lindsey Linger is the tomboy sister of his best friend. Now a sexy spitfire, she and Pete are liable to set the barn ablaze as their romance finally heats up. But she’s hiding a terrible secret, and rural life isn’t all bonfires and hayloft romps. That becomes clear one icy winter night when the survival of everyone Pete loves hangs in the balance. Can Pete be the hero they need, or will this be the end of the world as he knows it? *Mature situations and sexual content - recommended for ages 17+* ~Excerpt~ “What the hell?” Mom charges out of the utility room and into the kitchen with my jeans balled up in one hand. In the other hand is a small plastic bag. “What is this? Tell me it isn’t what I think it is!” She shakes it in my face. “I don’t know! It’s not mine.” “Then why did I find it in your pocket?” “My—” Oh, hell no. “I can explain. There was a girl at the party last night—” “Party? I thought you had a project to work on at the library. Now you’re doing drugs and lying?” “No! I mean yes. Yes, I went to a party last night, but no, I’m not smoking pot. She must have shoved it in my pocket.” “She was close enough that she had her hands in your front pocket?” I open my mouth for a second then snap it shut. I’m screwed either way, so I decide on the lesser of two evils. “Yes, she had her hands in my pocket. I’m eighteen. I can’t stay your innocent little boy forever, Mom, but I promise you I’m not doing drugs.” “Did you drink?” I feel my cheeks redden under her glare. “I see.” “What’s going on?” My stomach lurches into my throat at the sound of Dad’s voice. “Tell your father what you did, Pete.” “Mom—” Shame, hot and sticky, crawls up my neck. Mom only knows the basics, and if she and Dad knew what really went down last night, they’d die, come back to life, tell me how disappointed in me they are, die again, and make me feel guilty for eternity for killing their vision of the perfect son…the one who doesn’t bang girls who sell pot and have sex with other girls. Buy Links: Amazon Barnes & NobleAll Romance eBooks Kobo
~About the Author~ Always a misfit, Stephanie Lawton writes twisted romance that tugs the heart strings then punches you in the gut. She has a tendency to psychoanalyze people, which comes in handy when creating characters. She’s fascinated by teacher-student relationships, bullies, psychics, doomsday preppers and larger-than-life characters. Making readers squirm is her greatest pleasure. Proceed with caution. Originally from rural northeast Ohio, she lives in Coastal Alabama with her family. Author Links: SiteFacebookTwitterShelf Life Pinterest Board ~Giveaway~
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isn’t sure just how kinky anyone can get on a Tuesday before Christmas,
but she’s willing to find out. That is, assuming this first drink at a
pool hall with her ex, Gabe, and his girl, Kate, doesn’t send anyone
screaming from the bar. Newly divorced after years of sleep-walking
through occasional sex, she’s hoping to find her way back to the fiery
confidence of her youth, when she saw what, or who, she wanted and
grabbed it with both hands. It’s a Callie she barely remembers and that
Gabe is convinced is buried somewhere deep inside her still.
when bystanders speculate about the trio, and Gabe and Kate make
surprising demands that she be an active participant in this threesome,
and not simply their plaything, Callie discovers that letting herself be
sexually confident again is harder than she imagined. She’ll need to
bare both her body and her heart to find out if she can still reach
fearlessly for adventure
Among Monsters will be available in ebook and paperback on Amazon!
Being thirteen has pitfalls of its own, but growing up has never been this hard.
Jenna had promised her mother that if the worst happened during her dad’s weekend, they would meet at Red Hill Ranch. When she finds seven words spray-painted on her dad’s wall the morning after a deadly outbreak, she makes a promise to herself: to get to the ranch with her seven-year-old sister, Halle, and to get them both there alive.
Among Monsters is the companion novella to Red Hill, both exploring from different perspectives what many broken families experience every other weekend: What if your children aren't with you when the world ends? What would you do to get to them? What would they go through to get to you?
For Jenna, seeing her mother again is worth everything. Determined to keep her promise, she is faced with experiences and decisions that force her to leave her childhood behind.
The governor was elevated above the crowd on a make-shift stage in the center of the room, speaking comforting words into a microphone, as people yelled questions and concerns. “I hear what you’re saying. I’m not saying not to worry. With words like epidemic and now pandemic being thrown around…it’s a worrisome situation. But we’re safe here, and that’s what we need to focus on now. Panic won’t solve anything.” “Is it the terrorists?” someone yelled. “No,” the governor said, amused. “I’ve been told it’s a virus.” “What kind of virus?” someone else asked. “We’re not exactly sure yet,” Governor Bellmon said. He was being honest. I’d give him that. “There are reports in Mississippi!” a man said, holding up his phone. The crowd erupted, and the governor leaned over to whisper something in a man’s ear. He was dressed in a suit, and he nodded before leaving the stage immediately. He walked over to Tom, the fire chief, just feet away from where we stood. Tom listened intently to the man in the suit and then waved to his men to come closer. “The governor has ordered we gather water and supplies. We’re going into disaster mode, guys. I know most of you came in for the photo op, but you’re getting called in. Let’s get going.” The men gave a nod and turned for the back door. Dad looked around and caught Tom as he was making his way toward the police chief and the mayor. “Tom, I’ve got my little girls here,” Dad said. Tom looked down at Halle and me and then nodded, giving Dad an unspoken pass, before he continued on. “Now what?” I asked. “We wait for the guys to get back and help as best as we can.” He leaned in, whispering in my ear. “Do me a favor, Jenna. Stay off your phone. I don’t want any of the stuff on the news to scare your sister.” I felt a small hand grip mine. I knelt down beside Halle. Her stringy blonde hair was a ratty mess as it always was after school. Her clothes were mismatched, and her heather-gray hoodie jacket was tied around her waist. She pushed up her black-rimmed glasses, her ice-blue eyes glistening. We couldn’t look more different—Halle with her light-blue eyes and tiny frame and me with my honey-brown irises and chestnut hair. I was always athletic, always pushing against boundaries, vying for independence, even when I was little. Halle just always seemed so fragile. As if she could hear my thoughts and personify them, she squeaked her next words, “I want Mom.” “I bet she’ll head this way as soon as she gets off work. She’ll want to be here with us,” I said. Halle shook her head. “She won’t come here, Jenna. She’ll go to our place.” “Red Hill? That’s just if something bad happens, silly.” Halle looked around at the roomful of frightened people. “This is bad, Jenna.” I stood and squeezed her to my side.
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About the Author:
Jamie McGuire was born in Tulsa, OK. She attended the Northern Oklahoma College, the University of Central Oklahoma, and Autry Technology Center where she graduated with a degree in Radiography. Jamie paved the way for the New Adult genre with international bestseller, Beautiful Disaster. Her follow-up novel Walking Disaster debuted at #1 on the New York Times, USA Today, and Wall Street Journal bestseller lists. She has also written apocalyptic thriller Red Hill, a novella titled A Beautiful Wedding, and the Providence series, a young adult paranormal romance trilogy. Jamie lives on a ranch just outside Enid, OK with husband Jeff and their three children. They share their 30 acres with cattle, six horses, three dogs, and Rooster the cat. Find Jamie at www.jamiemcguire.com or on Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram!